STRESS

I started this blog for stress relief..ha! It's pretty bad when I can't even bring myself to post.
Here it is 5 days away from Christmas and I have no holiday spirit. I could care less. It is just going to be another day in my life. I haven't put up a tree in three years!

I go to bed at night with my shoulders weighted down and I wake up the same way in the morning...if I have the chance to even sleep. I carry it around with me all day long and it just never goes away.

I WISH MY DAUGHTER WOULD GET HER ACT TOGETHER!!! SHE IS DRIVING ME NUTS!!!

I could resort to drinking myself to death. It wouldn't be hard. Boozehounds run in the family on both sides. I just can't handle the hangovers anymore. It takes me a couple of days to recover from a binge so I gave that up several years ago.

I tried reading. I would go to the library and check out 5 books a week. For a while there I was reading every mystery novel ever written. I could become absorbed in a good blood and guts book and forget all the real life drama. Here lately I can't even pick up a book much less read one.

I haven't walked the dogs in a while...too dammed cold! Although they still give me unconditional love and comfort.

Work helps. There is something very humble about hearing the bugle boy play taps as the flag is folded when the men and women who have fought so hard for our country are laid to rest. Working at a veterans cemetery is very enlightening. Never thought I would like the funeral business so much.

And then there is cooking. When I get real stressed I go into the kitchen and cook my ass off. Of course my husband loves it. I just made my third pan if gingerbread in a week.

There is one positive note: I do not eat as much! I have lost at least 10 pounds in the last couple of months. My clothes are fitting nicely. So even though I feel like shit, I look better than I have in a while.

It's been almost a month since my last post. Between my new career and all the drama with my daughter it's been hard finding the time to sit down and write about the thing that stresses me out the most.
My daughter's life, as always is filled with nothing but DRAMA. It's because of the people she call's friends who she has chosen to put her trust in that her life has been turned topsy turvy. She has such a good heart and she is very loyal to the people she cares about, its just they don't care for her the same way and they sure are not loyal!
Anyway she has moved into a big house on a beautiful lake and she is waiting for one of the roommates to move in. He has been nothing but trouble and in the meantime she told Dipshit (or little shit or whatever I call him these days) to take a hike. He takes her out of town for her birthday and they have a real nice time only for him to give her that old line the day after of "can't we start over and just be friends." She tells him, "I'm sorry, but I can't be just friends so we can either start over and you can date me or we will just decide to date other people." I don't think he liked her answer, so what does he do? Has a freaking fit. So now she has not seen him in 3 weeks. He actually text-ed her yesterday and asked her if she had saved him a turkey leg. She did not respond. Then tonite he text-ed her again and asked her what she was doing. Of course she has no plans, but she told him she was going out with her girlfriends.
For once I would like to be wrong about someone. Just once. I had him pegged from the beginning as a Player, even though I kept hoping to be wrong.
My daughter was starting to have feelings for this guy, thank goodness she did not have a lot of time invested in him, but she is miserable just the same. Not a good time to be miserable here so close to the holidays.
I am still considering that add on Craigs List: Son-in-law wanted. Responsible, Respectful of women, Non-cheater, with no crazy psycho ex-girlfriends.

Is There Really A Light At The End Of The Tunnel

I think my daughter is starting to see the light. (I'm being hopeful)
As I write this she is telling Dipshit that he can't live in her house, they cannot be friends and she is moving on. It will be interesting to see how Dipshit reacts to this announcement. He will either "sweet talk" his way back in the door, or he will bow out gracefully and admit what an ass he has been, or he will bow out and not believe a word she says and the games will just continue on.
I have been considering running an add on Craig's List:
Son-in-law wanted.
Decent man that respects women
Responsible
NOT AN ASS
Keeps his word
Has to be somewhat good looking

Wonder if I would get any responses?

Be Careful What You Wish For

I have come to the conclusion that all young men today are pigs...unless proven otherwise. Oh I know there have to be some good guys out there somewhere, but they must be in hiding. I have also come to the conclusion that most likely my daughter will never get married and I am destined to have a pug for a grandchild. Not that I do not love the pug that I have custody of now. Mia is a very sweet little dog. Still a human grandchild would be preferable.
There is just something about young people today that I just don't get!!! The saddest thing of all is I can remember my mother and grandmother saying the same dammed thing about my generation. Still and all, it's just a different world today. Young men and women tend to be very self-absorbed and obsessed with one thing or another. I look at my daughter and wonder where in the hell did we go wrong! We never spoiled her with material things, she went to work at 15 and I picked her up everyday after school and took her to a job where she did hard heavy labor. A little 96 pound girl working at a nursery lifting 50-70 pound pots of plants. She worked hard and kept that job all throughout high school and even worked there her first summer back home from college. She struggled financially that first year in college and worked on campus and even in the evenings working tables at a local diner in the town of Bowling Green, KY. She worked all the way through up until her senior year when things became tougher and she really had no spare time to work. Kristen does not mind hard work and she has always appreciated what she has worked so hard to earn.
Her biggest problem in life is her
poor choices in men. I thought after five years of DICKWEED that she would know what to do when the red flags went up. It's like ignoring the warning flags on the beach when there is a storm and bad undertows. Do you still jump in and ride the waves that are going to take you under? My daughter does! When will she ever learn?
Well, at least she is moving on. Isn't that what I have wanted her to do since DICKWEED? What is that old saying, "BE CAREFUL WHAT YOU WISH FOR." And the other half of that is what you wish for may come back and bite you on the ass!

Busy

I think it has been several weeks since I posted. Not like me to let so much time go by, but here I am at the age of 53 starting a new career, so I have been a bit busy. I have also been trying to rent out my daughter's house...very time consuming.
This is her moving weekend. I guess her dad and I will find ourselves in the mix of helping with all the packing...NO Lifting! She should have plenty of help for that!
Anyway, I am considering not giving the Pug back..ha ha! I hear that the new boyfriend is adverse to letting Mia (pug) sleep in the bed. Mia sleeps with us every night right up next to my tummy, and before that she always slept with Kristen. So...that just isn't right! If nothing else, I will be sharing custody of her! I refuse to let that poor little dog, my granddoggie sleep in a cage!!!